Wednesday, 8 August 2012

All Done Things

All good things
Still go away in the end.
- Because -
They become tainted by their own sense of time.
'Tisn't (just) you what makes it so -
They have their own sense of identity.

Who are we to impose our will upon theirs?

So get along then;
Kick them out the door and
Get it over quick
Because the grieving will never end, otherwise.

(You may come back over the years
To revisit them
But they will always look different
To the photographs you have in your mind -
They grow older
Get fatter about the face
Grow more placid, or hostile;
But they will always answer in predictable patterns.)

Tuesday, 3 July 2012

A Midnight Hanging

And the moon
Always staring
Like the ever-open eye of God a'glaring
At the brilliant banalities
You'd bled with no regret,
Looked on as if
Watching someone else's razed homestead
Burn bright across the neighbourly fence;
Your disconnect
All keen and wed,
Tied up tight 'round
The intellect 'pon which you fed...
...But nothing new now
To be a found from this pon'dring:
Midnight has called,
And the mob's come a'thronging.

What sensational fury
That rose up from the crowd!
And you withdrew to your space of the
'Here', and 
the 'Now'
And forgot the rope 'round your neck
Somehow, 
Inept with all the sins that found you out
You wept for the Grace of a God you'd denounced!
Your death bed now a'glimmer,
A shroud in the definitively singular encroachment
Of an impossibly infinite reproachment
Of all you'd done
To bring you thus:
No more will they shout "ONE OF US!"
Yer just another torso,
Dropped three feet through the trap door,
Swinging in the dust.

Sunday, 1 July 2012

The Enthusiast

As I lay in bed this morning, I found myself inhabiting a strange world where creatures walked on their hind legs, and had relationships with one another, and built peculiar structures from synthetic materials, and devised elaborate ways to manage their understandings of space, and time, and mortality.

As I wandered about this place, I felt as if I were in a labyrinthine art gallery with infinite wall space; the paintings all alive and animate with the landscapes and objects they depicted.

The paintings did not know that they were only paintings, mere imitations of life; and the scenes caught by brush and stroke moved and breathed in a grotesque mockery of their two-dimensionality, ignorant of their frames' constraints. 

I haunted in an idle daze through the echoing belly of the endless curation - surely the most exquisite and elaborate amassing of masterpieces ever known to humankind - and I lingered my gaze upon the various depictions of life with all the sombre detachment of an accomplished art enthusiast; silently drifting past the works which left me unmoved, and pausing by the ones that hungered at the intangible intellect of my soul to reflect, ponderously, upon the artists' intent.

Oh there were all manner of styles present.  Abstract, impressionist, romantic, modernist, post-modern.  But those that sang the strongest lure, riveting my attention like Odysseus amid the sirens were the realists: all green and brown and beige and crimson, they caught in snapshots all things mundane: blank faced figures chopping wood, playing cards, drawing a bath, staring. 

It woozily began to feel as if I had one foot in their world; and the longer I looked, the more it seemed as if they knew I was there, watching them like a voyeur.  That if I whispered, they would hear my words rolling like a breeze along the hills, bristling through the leaves in an imitation of syllables, whistling up cracks in floorboards like the sighing of dying memories.  

Or perhaps it was more like this: although unaware of the gallery from which I appraised them, my detachment was not absolute - the paintings were cognizant of me, could somehow see me - and I existed as surely in their paintings as they; an unseen figure beyond the frame, behind the canvas.

I wondered then if perhaps there might not be another painting, hung somewhere else, of a thin, lone figure walking through an infinite gallery of bleaching white surfaces, dwarfed by enormous works of art, unaware of its own flimsy dimensions, and unaware that it, too, was being contemplated.

Friday, 15 June 2012

Pigeon English

I am sitting in post office square park, having a cigarette with the unhealthy birds that graze here.
They prowl by my ankles, curiously bobbing their heads as if to ask if what I have, they may have also.
Their feathers are brown, where once they were white.  I know this, because I have seen pigeons in other places, and was shocked to see them so different.
These ones have a dull sheen of disease, and I wonder if they know of their brothers and sisters who are free, who have clean feathers and strong beaks, who ride the wind to foreign places and fight with exotic predators for triumph and pride.
A homeless man approaches.  He throws a bucket of bread on the ground, and they swarm the scraps, pecking and praying at that sacrilegious shrine.
No.  They do not care for their kindred.  'Why should I go?'  They must think.  Better to grow fat and dirty with comfort and ease than to risk life and leg in the mysteries of the unknown.  'I have all I need right here.'
They finish their scraps and a few come back my way.
I try to tell them that cigarettes are not for birds, but I get stuck trying to figure out if they are really meant for humans either.

Saturday, 9 June 2012

Overheard Conversations: The Gender Divide

I was sitting on a bench on the rooftop bar of 'The Order', rolling a cigarette and composing a text message when the conversation next to me caught my attention.

I turned slightly, so as to better eavesdrop, and from my peripherals I noted four people sitting around a table - two guys and two girls. They were all rather pleasant looking people, and it seemed to me that it was a double date.  

The two guys were involved in an earnest and impassioned conversation.  One of them, a taller fellow with a straggly beard and long, wavy hair said, "YES! But that's EXACTLY why time is our prisoner!" (This is what initially caught my attention.)

The fellow he was talking to had a more clean-cut and fashionable image - styled hair and clothes that emphasised his physique.  He eagerly nodded along as his friend said this, then twisted away to the girls, a bemused and enthusiastic grin on his face.

Now, to my left, and adjacent to these two chaps this whole time were the girls; perhaps in their early twenties, quite cute and dressed in low-cut yet respectable clothes.  The entire while that their male counterparts had been engaging in their philosophical musings, they had also been chatting, almost convulsively so.  It was a continuous bubbling of giddy and euphoric sounds; the shape of each word indistinct beneath the melody of their combined voices; a conversation of undecipherable syllables all dizzy and cacaphonic.  It was not unpleasant though, and appeared more to me that they were simply very good friends.  They actually were nearly sitting on each other, they were so close, and they laughed and hooted often.

Anyway - the fashionable man turned to them, and reached over to lay a hand upon the closest knee, drawing their attention.  

They shut up instantaneously and looked at him.

Eyes a'glow, he announced, "Ladies!" (And here he paused, revelling in his moment and beaming a wry grin of pride.) "Ladies - WE have been discussing - TIME!"

The girls looked at him, then looked at each other, and then looked back at him.  The closest one to him, the one upon whose knee he'd laid his hand playfully chirruped, "Really?! WE'VE been talking about SEX!!"

Prometheus: Reviewed by my dad and I over text-message.

Just one of many reasons why I love him.
P.S. Toot is my step-mum, i.e. dad's wife.

ME:
Welp - I thought Prometheus was as boring as batshit.  What'd you think?

DAD:
Batshit would've been wonderful! What the fuck was that all about? Toot kept looking at me to see if she was missing something. I said, 'No dear, it is just stupid.' :\

Wednesday, 6 June 2012

Overhead Conversations: Blinded by the Light

Girl:
(In outraged voice) I watched the transit of Venus today, and I think I fucked my eyes!
(switches to matter-of-fact tone) I was reading a little later that you can seriously damage your corneas from staring at the sun.

Long pause.

Guy:
(bewildered) Dude! You weren't supposed to just stare at the sun! Didn't you use goggles or something??